I know that when I cancelled Maintenance Day that most of you wondered and/or had suspicions about why I would have done so. Those of you who have attended know that it's a weekend that Eileen and I truly enjoy hosting and look forward to every year.
I feel that it's time to come clean with you all. I consider many of you family and though there are some things that must be kept private, it is fair to tell you some of what had and has transpired.
After being together for about 20 years and married from more than 18 years, Eileen and I reached a very difficult time in our relationship. There are a lot of things that led up to it and I won't go into the private details. The bottom line is that we ended up separating for a brief period and then even when together, most of our discussions were in regard to how to best end our marriage. For a while, it seemed that divorce was certainly the likely outcome.
When I met Eileen about 20 years ago, I truly felt that she was a gift from God and one that I would always love and felt that it would be my duty and honor to take care of for the rest of our lives. As in all of our lives, a lot of things tried to interfere with that and though many of them were outside our our control, they still slowly chipped away at the foundation of our marriage and until finally it was quickly crumbling away. Though I have been a Christian for many years, I had lost the close relationship that I once had with my Lord and arrogantly thought that I was able to deal with such things without him.
The fact is though, after much talking and crying and praying, we both finally realized that what we have is real and our marriage was sanctioned by God and nothing should tear it down. We have talked about a lot of issues and managed to resolve a lot of things over the past days. I know that not all of you here are Christians and I'm not trying to ram my beliefs down anybodies throats so please understand that it is not my purpose to do that but those beliefs played such a major role in our reconciliation that I can't tell you about this and not include it in the story.
The fact is, we do believe that God brought us together. We also know that God has been with us on our 20 year walk together but at some point, I slowly allowed him to be less and less important in our lives...at least in my own life. I know now that only though a daily dialog with him and truly seeking his guidance and strength can I be the kind of husband that he would have me be. That is what I want and that is what Eileen desires and deserves from me.
So things are good now. We will continue talking and praying and restoring what we lost but with God's help and guidance, we are becoming stronger and closer than we ever have been. We have decided to renew our vows and are both looking forward to doing so. Haven't set a date for that yet but it will be very soon. Please don't feel left out but it will be a very small and private ceremony with only a handful of close family members present.
So now you have it. For some, this is just a confirmation of what you already suspected. For others, it may come as a complete surprise. Either way, we ask for your prayers as we move forward in our lives and if you are not one who is inclined to pray then just your best wishes are welcome also.
Thanks for listening.
Don